This is what my therapist tells me. My anxiety never reaches a peak, though. It’s been constant for years. That combined with my extremely stressful life situation makes it just a million times worse. I have been consideeing drinking until I black out. But I know that if I even drink one sip I won’t be able to stop. No, I don’t mean for one night. I mean for a good while. I need a total, freaking break out of life. Preferably a reset. If I drink myself to oblivion or if I skip eating for days – who knows. Maybe I’ll just watch kdramas and not talk to anyone for days (which is most likely).
The sunset a few days ago was absolutely stunning. I should have brought my camera with me. But I didn’t. I rarely bring it with me because it’s so heavy.
Look. I need a pause from blogging again. My life right now is a freaking mess. I am not even going to get into detail. But literally stressed. No energy mentally. Everything is draining me.
Not sure when the blog will be up again. Who knows. I just need a freaking vacation.
I am literally longing for friday. In it’s usual order it would be because I get money, but I am longing for the fact that I get to buy boxes. I am literally going insane here with all the stuff. A lot will go to recycling or donations. But my mum is sick so I got no transportation as of now. So, once I have the boxes, That’s fine.
I have a really old bureau that I got from my friend. It is a little out of shape. But I’m thinking if I can paint it and maybe fix the corners. I mean, it’s practical but a little bit out of the weather.
So apparantely I had blogged something really hilarious just a night ago. I did delete the post, but not without printing it. I had a good laugh.
Been visiting my brother in law for his birthday yesterday. I’m not much of a cake eater – never have been – but the cake was really good. It’s called prinsesstårta and is just vanilla sauce, jam, cream and marzipan. You can of course make it totally vegan if you want to and if you want to alter the recipe – go for it! The more the merrier. I will make a vegan, chocolate inspired for my birthday. ♡
No. I don’t remember it. I took medicine and I really thought I’d dreamt that… oh well.
Time for bed my lovely little nekos. ♡ Got to go with my mum to the doctor tomorrow. ♡