Hello you all. I just wanted you to know that my blog is still alive. Life got in the way and it’s been some painful months for my family and I.
But I have things to look forward to. My brother and my sister in law is having a baby girl in two weeks so I am going to be an aunt again.
And my best friend and one I see as a sister and her husband whom I will refer to as my brother in law even if we are not related are having their first child in a few weeks. I will see myself as his aunt and unofficial god mother since it helps me have something to fight for, as Emma expressed.
She has requested a book for the baby. I know the characters. I just need to think of a storyline.
Like, should it be one book or should it be split into a series? The books will have a simple learning method, with easy questions to help the toddler and older children learn how to question and to be curious.
If I publish the book and sell it it will go to childrens education and for special education needs.
Either way, thought I would drop by to leave a message. I will blog soon. I miss the blog community and I want to be a part of it.
I love you all and I’ll talk to you soon. ♡
Best: Spending time with my mum. We’ve been watching movies and shows. I always love spending time with my mum. She understands me 100 % but won’t ever question my random sides. 😍
Worst: It’s been too warm. I mean, Sweden is usually not hot hot, but it’s warm and it gets suffocating and humid. We need rain frequently to clear the air and we haven’t gotten any except a few drops today (thank goodness). But it wasn’t enough. Can you tell I am not that much of a summer person yet? 😂😇
Feeling: I’ve been feeling anxious. Like, 24/7. This has resulted in my OCD being a little worse to the extent that I can’t handle it. And even if I’ve felt that last night I didn’t feel the need to do my routines I did them out of habit. So hopefully I can break the circle soon. I really need to learn how to challenge my anxiety. The problem is that the challenging part gives me anxiety and this is a vicious cycle that literally never ends.
Wish: World peace. This has been my wish since I was a kid. When my friends and I were like 8 years old we wrote down what we wanted the most in the world and I was the only one who said world peace. I guess I was a little bit of a diplomat as a child as well. Comes with being a middle child, perhaps?
In other news: my green website is coming up soon. Which means a lot of green stuff – meaning vego friendly. I want to encourage people to try out the green lifestyle – no harm in trying and by trying it out you will not only do the animals and environment a favour; but you’ll also do yourself one by feeding your body the nutrients they need. Fun fact: There is more protein in a bowl of lentils than a piece of steak. Surprise, surprise. 💪
I will also talk with a study counsellor this coming autumn to get a science based base year to prep for eventual medical studies in the future – let’s see how that goes. 🙂 I am still not sure where to start. My mind is a constant chaos. That and I need to do something all the time – I should get a fidget spinner or a fidget cube. My dad finds it annoying that I constantly shake my legs or twirls/click a pen. I can’t help it. I can’t be still, it’s not working out for me. That just makes me restless. That’s just who I am I guess. 👀
I’ve spent the last few days writing letters since I have quiet a lot to catch up with. I don’t have a problem with it; I love writing. I just should have a habit of actually replying once I get them instead of letting them pile up like they have been doing – so I am doing that from now on. 🙂
I have gotten a lot of teas from my penpals. I am curious about all of them. Some of them I’ve never tried and some I’ve tried – so excited and curious about some of them. I love tea. 🙂
Summer is here with all its additions. Heat, rain, thunder and just the usual feeling of suffocation because summer in Sweden is torture since Sweden isn’t supposed to be this hot. But it’s getting cooler this coming week and it’s needed but I do of course welcome the heat back later. ♡
Yesterday I was struggling to get some pictures of Cosmos. He kept moving around, but eventually he went back to his original spot and I managed to get the pictures I wanted. 🙂
So, this little miss is complaining that I am not blogging anymore. So for her sake I will try to keep this blog a little more active – it feels good writing even if I am just blogging. It’s a little bit of therapy just letting the words flow freely. I am not sure where this blog is headed but there will definitely be a lot of writing since I am a writer by heart.
So, here is a poem that I wrote about the concept about being in love. I dedicate it to anyone who shares their life with a significant other or just feels this way and most I dedicate it to my soulmate and best friend and her husband.
“I want to spend time with you just like we used to do. I want to smile with you and just live a life – a life of happiness just me and you. I want to see the world, count the stars and hold you tight until we share kiss good night. Let me be with you until the day I die – until our final breath bids the last goodbye.”
I am quiet happy with how this piece turned out. I hope you like it.
Love you Emma and I will always be with you.
Took some really cute pictures of Cosmos about two days ago. It’s a rare occassion I actually pick up my camera so yeah. A little bit unsharp but they work.